Like the prodigal son, I traveled to a far country. In time, my life spiraled out of control. I found in myself addictive and destructive behaviors. I often prayed for forgiveness and healing, but these gifts were elusive as I was not ready to trust God and believe He would care for me.
Looking back, I see, even in the darkest moments, that God kept a corner of my heart safe. God revived me in His time. When fully consumed by guilt, depression, anxiety, and life-ending thoughts, God began to restore my heart and change my life.
God placed within me the courage to openly and honestly acknowledge my sins. He gave me the willingness to let go of the thoughts and behaviors I mistakenly believed would make my life better. In their place, God instilled within me a desire for faith, intimacy with my family, true friendship, and healthy recreation. God reforms me as I trust Him and act on His call to this new, and often unfamiliar, way of living.
I am grateful that God continues to revive my heart and reform my life. Though not perfect, I now experience joy and happiness.
When I am tempted to return to the far country, I remember that I am God’s precious child, much loved, and forgiven.
For me, the goal of ministry is to help others find this wonderful gift, patiently remembering it will come to them in God’s time and according to His plan.
—Derris O. Krause, Vice President of Marketing and Development, Hope Channel